This year is my first Mother's Day. It's my first one as a single mother whose children haven't heard a word from their dad in nearly a year.
Truth be told, I don't know how I feel about it. Indifferent at the moment, depressed yesterday, empowered this afternoon...
It is what it is.
I would have never chosen to be the only parent in my children's lives under normal circumstances.
Had I known my former husband would ditch us after we had kids, would I still have started a family with him?
Why even ponder that question. I've pondered it. There's no answer. There doesn't need to be.
I was created to be mom to these three miracles. It's my purpose. God called on me to carry this beautiful burden.
While it is a difficult, grueling calling, it is mine, and I am blessed. I am thankful. I am terrified. I am confident.
I am Mom. I am Momma. I am Mommy.
My children are still young and although they created beautiful art at daycare to celebrate, I am not certain they understand Mother's Day. The day is no different to them, I am sure, than any other day.
But, to me... It's a celebration. It's a celebration of all moms of every kind, as well as women who have the heart of mothers and bless children by choice.
But, this year, it's a celebration of me, too. I celebrate how far we have come when we could have fallen further. I celebrate the laughter and joy in my children's eyes. I celebrate the tantrums and struggles and the fact we always get though them and smile not long after. I celebrate the fact that instead of giving up, I stepped up. I celebrate my fight for my children.
Happy Mother's Day to me (and to you)!