Friday, August 19, 2011

See You Later.

This morning was hard on me.

This morning, Spencer and I said goodbye to Jesse and Samantha at the airport, as they ventured off to a new life in Alaska.

The past few days, actually, have been hard. On Wednesday night, I watched Jake hug them both goodbye, knowing that we'd see them again in November, and not knowing when we would after that, if it'd be months, a year, or more. That was hard. I cried quite a bit, knowing that it was the last time my husband would see his twin for quite some time.

This morning was our turn. They both crawled into the backseat for a few moments and said goodbye to my baby boy. Then, after numerous hugs and kisses on the cheek, I got into the driver's seat, and pulled away.

Luckily, November is barely over 2 months away, so it wont' be "too long" until we see them again. And, we purchased a webcam, so the three of us can Skype with the two of them. And of course, we have text messages, Facebook, and hand-written letters to look forward to. But, we won't be in the same car, park, room, what have you, for quite some time, and that's hard.

I try to figure out why I am so emotional over the entire situation, and I think I have it figured out.

Samantha and I met this year, she met me in March (after my surgery), which I don't remember, and we met for real in April. We quickly became close, talking, laughing, and spending tons of time together. We realized how similar we are, almost like sisters, and definitely new best friends. It's amazing! Then, she was blessed with the opportunity of a lifetime and was offered a job in Alaska, doing what she dreams of doing. Obviously, I am ecstatic for her, but it's hard to see her go. It's hard to let someone so close to you go, especially after only having her around for a short period of time.

And then, there's Jesse. We've known each other for almost 10 years, but unfortunately, I would say that we weren't really friends, or close, until around the time that Spencer was born. Now, I love him (not just like a brother-in-law, but as a brother, and a dear friend), and we have been able to really get to know each other, and finally spend quality time together. And now, too, he is on his adventure, and it seems all too soon for me. That, and he's my husband's twin brother, and the only uncle Spencer has within two hours time (roughly). So, I'm sad for all of us that they're gone.

But, as I said, I am very happy for them. I LOVE seeing them together and I know that they're deeply in love. I support their move and their lives in Alaska, wholeheartedly, and I want them to have the most amazing time away from us. I hope that we can visit them soon. I can't wait for Spencer to be able to spend his first vacation with them there. We've been talking about it for weeks! Only a few more years...

But, obviously, the conflicting joy for them and sadness for us doesn't make it easy to know they're gone.

Sam, Jesse, if you're reading this... I... WE LOVE YOU!

1 comment:

  1. Goodbyes are hard. I was always the one leaving, and it wasn't until after college that I realized how hard it was on the ones who stay behind. I always thought it was worse for me when I was going, because I had to start over. Not so. There's something ridiculously hard about trying to continue doing the same thing when those important to you are no longer around to play their usual role.

    I wish Jesse and Samantha the best of luck in their new adventure. What a lovely thing to know you're missed :)